My Running Life: A week that almost give up

A very mentally challenging week.

I was unable to cope with, both work place, personal life and running.

Work place - that's my bread and butter

Personal life - problems that must be solved, such as moving to a new place.

Running - it seemed this are the only one can negotiate with.

At work place, the already packed schedule, still need to give way to surprise work that come in, by email, at midnight, or half way during lunch.

Some people say, "just sacrifice a bit of your time after work". Alright. Don't argue.

Things almost out of hand. And I need to find excuse to myself, "give up, don't be perfectionist, it's ok"

Tues - hills above Botanical Garden was caught with fire. Youth park and Botanical Garden was closed to plublic on Wed (not sure if already opened). It's really long dry seasons.

Wednesday was a stress day as there's 24 km medium long run, but I was hold up in the work place. Struggle within self whether to cancel the run, as I was already exhausted of Mon and Tues, and there's still 4 days to go this week. Started the run at 7 pm, and I was no motivation to run. Like a vampire with no emotion. No blood. Struggle, ran around padang polo and argue with myself, "you got all the reasons to stop the run today" "retire" "it's ok just missed this one time". The other one told me, if you excuse yourself this time, then what about next time? As I run and I broke the run into section and finally finish it. Not a pleasure run. As my mind was all on work and moving rooms stuff.

Thursday recovery was omitted to stay at work place to complete the task.

Friday was the last day of Feb, took one day off from work to move everything to the new place. Done morning medium long run, started to move from 11 am and till 9 pm (and still haven't finish tidy up). This is crazy, how to do the Sunday marathon race pace run? However, the more headache stuff is the new place. The change, was such a headache. I foresee this headache will last. I'd really need advice like from Master Yoda, "patience you must have", "Train yourself to let go everything you fear to lose"...

I'm facing the dark side, I might start the dark path to the dark force...

However, still I've gone tru this one week. Next week is a recovery with no pressure on hard train.

I must make use of this week to settle most of the things. All the work to settle are within one month, and I haven't finish the plan for Rotorua, oh my~

"May the Force be with you", says Master Yoda.

Week -9 (02-24-14 to 03-02-14)

Day		Distance	Time	Speed	Route
Mon (Feb 24 14)		6 kilometers	36:14 min	6:02 min/kilometer
	Recovery
Tue (Feb 25 14)		14 kilometers	1:16:59 min	5:30 min/kilometer
	General aerobic
Wed (Feb 26 14)		24 kilometers		5:10 min/kilometer
	Medium-long run, Notes: Came back late from work. A day that very demotivated and almost give up. Struggle before start whether to run, battle within self whether to cut short or just give up the day of running.
Thu (Feb 27 14)	No run. Stayed back at office to complete some tasks.
Fri (Feb 28 14)		21 kilometers	1:42:20 min	4:52 min/kilometer
	Medium-long run
Sat (Mar 01 14)		11 kilometers	1:04:24 min	5:51 min/kilometer
	Recovery, Notes: with 6x100m strides
Sun (Mar 02 14)		29.2 kilometers	2:13:33 min	4:34 min/kilometer
	Marathon race pace r, Notes: 29 km with 19 km at marathon race pace target 4:15/km. Weather was not cold even in the morning. Its like something trapped in the air. However leg was not tired, probably due to no run on Thurs. However sleep was not good the night before. Able to achieve target pace in a few km but feel tired at the end of the run. Splits start 11th km: 4:29, 4:19 hydration, with stop, 4:24, 4:17, 4:16, 4:12, 4:12, 4:21 hydrationgel, 4:10, 4:06, 4:12, 4:11, 4:12, 4:30 hydrationgel, started to feel tired, 4:12, 4:12, 4:20 started to feel sluggish, 4:12, 4:12
		2 kilometers	12:50 min	6:23 min/kilometer
	Cool down
		10 kilometers	58:57 min	5:53 min/kilometer
	Recovery, Notes: Replace tomorrow morning recovery